What was Judas thinking?
Wednesday of Holy Week we aren’t told of Jesus’ whereabouts, only of the plotting of Judas to betray. And for such a significant event the details are surprisingly spare.
Now the Festival of Unleavened Bread, called the Passover, was approaching, and the chief priests and the teachers of the law were looking for some way to get rid of Jesus, for they were afraid of the people. Then Satan entered Judas, called Iscariot, one of the Twelve. And Judas went to the chief priests and the officers of the temple guard and discussed with them how he might betray Jesus. They were delighted and agreed to give him money. He consented, and watched for an opportunity to hand Jesus over to them when no crowd was present.
This account from Luke 22 poses more questions than answers, the prime one being Why?
Scholars have tried from time to time to repair the reputation of Judas, ascribing motive not found in the biblical texts. But as much as we’d like to know, we simply aren’t told exactly what was going on in his mind when he took those thirty coins.
We also wonder Where was Jesus? Judas’ story also troubles us because we wonder if it was just fate, if God set him up to be the betrayer.
As you revisit the familiar story of Judas, consider what led to his demise and death. Wasn’t it the way he reacted after his sin?
I am in no way comparing those who choose abortion with Judas Iscariot, but his handling of his sin can teach us a great deal. In this day some feminists are demanding abortion without apology–meaning motive doesn’t matter since there is no wrongdoing involved. Yet for others who remain troubled after abortion because we can’t pinpoint our own motives, nor disentangle them from the motives of others involved in the abortion choice, the remedy is not to shake off the struggle by denying again the humanity of our children lost to abortion, nor to gain self-knowledge as a way to relieve our guilt and shame.
And many of us are troubled that God allowed the abortion experience – where was He when we needed Him?
The answer to every troubling question is to turn from self entirely and repent, as Peter did after his own, perhaps worse betrayal.
Repentance is a gift you can receive today. We know in our hearts abortion is wrong–the killing of the weak by the strong. To repent is to admit this without excuse or justification. To repent is to reject the mindset which elevates personal choice over the value of human life. To repent is to open your spirit and heart to God’s merciful love.
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