Cradle My Heart Radio featured an important conversation on God’s judgment and abortion on our most recent program.
At the center of our understanding of judgment is our need to understand God’s heart. We can know where we stand through the knowledge and application of His word.
Last night our Cradle My Heart Radio guest, Carla Stream shared her story of going through with abortion based on little or no information about fetal development. Even though she was well into her first trimester, she was shown a video depicting a blastocyte–a three-cell organism with a gestational age of just days–and told that this is what was being terminated. The experience was painful physically, emotionally and spiritually.
But Carla was truly shattered with a subsequent miscarriage. It happened at home and she was able to cradle the body of her child whose gestational age was very close the age of the child she had aborted years earlier. Seeing the truth triggered a deep fear that God was punishing the abortion with the death of this child.
I have met many women who were subject to this fear. Mature believers and those who know nothing of the truth of God’s word can be drawn into the lie that God wreaks destruction as payback for our sins.
Carla gave an articulate and sweet answer as to how the light dawned to release her from the hold of that lie. (Listen to the podcast here.) She was most helped by understanding God’s love post-abortion ministry and through the book I’ll Hold You in Heaven by Jack Hayford. The book helped me too–as did Safe in the Arms of God by John MacArthur
I want to ratify our hope with these verses from Micah 6:
7 Shall I offer my firstborn for my transgression,
the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul?
8 He has shown you, O mortal, what is good.
And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly[a] with your God.
In this passage, God has brought charges against His people for the sin of idolatry. And He teaches them that offering up external sacrifices cannot cure their worship disorder. He specifically states that even if we were to offer up a child as payment for sin (in our case, the sin of abortion), that is NOT what He is after. And since He does not require if of us, He certainly will not exact it from us.
Jesus reiterated this teaching about what God requires of us in Matthew 9:13, Mark 12:33, and Luke 11:42. The Lord is simply not interested in extracting sacrifices or practicing child sacrifice to appease sin. God isn’t looking to punish you after abortion. He’s looking to capture your heart. We can never satisfy His holiness on our own. Yet when we yield our hearts to Him, He enables us to behave in ways that honor Him and ourselves and others.
If you have suffered the devastation of child loss after abortion, I know your grief must be so acute. One thing you DON’T need to suffer is the fear that God meant to harm you with anything that followed in its wake.
Even if you remain childless and must bear the sorrow of that earthly consequence, please know that God is working in the midst of that: He has taken our children unto Himself.
We can look to the hope we have of heaven with our children.
I pray you will grasp the beauty of this truth to ease your troubled heart today.